Wow, it was weird today, canceling all my extra utilities, homeowners insurance and such. I never have to go back to that house. Its no longer mine. Its left me uneasy all day. Certainly, there are some things I won't miss, like all those extra bills every month, but its still so sad. Its definitely not helping this helpless feeling of being lost that I seem to have this week. That thought that keeps poking the back of my eyeballs telling me to move again, start again. But I just did that and really don't want to do it again anytime soon. My life is like legos, I keep building it up and tearing it down and creating something new, maybe that's not a good thing. Cause at the same time many of those same pieces get recycled everytime. Hmmm...legos as a metaphor for life, couldn't be any weirder than organic chemistry as a metaphor for relationships. I may not believe in much lately, but i believe I'm gonna get wasted tonight and hopefully be sober enough tomorrow to go car shopping. Its time to get rid of the abrahms tank.